August 08, 2006
Aftermath.There is this need to feel this intensity of emotions, of feelings before they all get to settle into a sense of calm and peace. This heartache, this regret, this pain, before everything comes together, heavy with tears, and settle down yet again, back into the deep crevices where they shall be held back until the next storm brews.
This desire to breakfree, to detangle from everything. So strong should this desire be that it will bring that intensity of feelings down. To be detached from all these little emotional demons. Then, the chaos will be taken over by calm. The kind of calm that you get when you look out into the sea, with the wind in your face, the sky so blue like you always will want to remember it as, and the people take their strides behind you, and you feel empowered again, in control again. And hold on to that calm, that feeling of being in control, for as long as possible.
Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:16